For most of these Western
converts, the practice of these techniques was a fashionable at the
time trend that quickly faded from their interest. For some others,
practice
of these techniques
would become a passion that would persist for the rest of their
lives. This dedicated few who were left in the wake of these
visiting Eastern gurus did not withdraw from their active lifestyles
to undertake their spiritual journeys. These seekers on their own
custom tailored their Western lifestyle to incorporate as much of the
Eastern knowledge and the practice of these techniques as possible.
These
individual
efforts were largely at the discretion of their own personal
intuition and their personal drive and desire to be enlightened.
These custom tailored execution strategies would ultimately became
something of a personal homegrown enlightenment experiment for each
of these many independent seekers that was orchestrated and executed
separately by each individual. These homegrown enlightenment
experiments were cobbled together to address the personal challenges
and dilemmas that are inherent in this process of pursuing
enlightenment for that individual without the direct support of a
guru.
These
Western orphaned seekers found themselves left largely in charge of
the logistics and tactics to be used in the execution of these
strategic techniques and knowledge in the context
of their Western lifestyles.
Each individual seeker used their personal intuition as a
guide in lieu of learned elders to address current and anticipate
future requirements to facilitate their effort, but more importantly,
they became responsible for the interpretation of the results of all
this effort which would become the biggest challenge for the
homegrown efforts.
My Personal Experience
My
lifelong path of meditation and self study was set in motion when in
deference to several tenets of my Western upbringing, I was formally
introduced to the technique of meditation and became one of these
Western seeker orphans. Formally
introduced means instructed properly in the context of an initiation
puja, and not just casually informed by some passing acquaintance to
sit quietly and think of nothing.
The
effect of this meditative transcendental consciousness on me was
immediate from the first moment of
repeating the mantra and entering
this new meditative conscious state. It was apparent that this
experience was something significant that had been missing in all my
previous life experiences without my even having known that something
was missing. My initial experience with this new transcendental
consciousness inspired
in
me a
commitment to this new practice of meditation with
the conviction of a person obsessed.
Over
the next couple of days, my
teacher
gave a few more instructions
about the techniques and its enlightenment goal before disappearing
from my life forever. Before leaving,
they
conveyed
a clear understanding of how to properly
perform the meditation
technique and a
brief theoretical explanation of what to expect over the long term.
As the years passed, the general quality of my life experience was on
a steady upward trend seemingly
the result of this
meditation, and this trend of steady progress inspired
me to
find
the time in
my daily schedule to
accommodate this meditation practice.
Like
many of the other Western converts, certain promised times to
complete this quest for enlightenment were not consistent with my
actual experience. My teachers assured me that regular practice of
the technique would result
in
enlightenment in 8-10 years, but the first decade passed without this
major shift in consciousness. The years just kept rolling by without
this promised sustained experience of enlightenment, but my
commitment to the process never wavered.
Over
time, I gradually drifted away from the organization that had
developed around this technique. Clearly to me, there were benefits
from using these techniques so I continued
their practice in
what became
a
persistent journey of self-discovery in my obsessive pursuit of this
mysterious enlightenment. Without
much contact with others
on a similar path, I shared my experiences and practices with no one
after having
been set adrift by circumstance. All the while, aware
of the fact
that something inside me was slowly but steadily growing and
changing.
Final Revelations
Finally
after decades of going
down this twisting path,
I did finally experience a major shift in my personal conscious
experience. Without any direct contact with teachers, guides, or
even many fellow seekers, I found
myself in
what
appear to be
new state of consciousness that seems pretty significantly
different and remarkable,
but it is not exactly what I had so
naively
imagined when starting down this path all
those
years ago.
With this shift in
consciousness, there came an incredible new clarity of thinking
accompanied by
certain positive changes to my physical body. From this new
perspective, there arose a profound line of thinking that began to
automatically unfold before me, and everything subsequently began to
make perfect sense after
a
cascading sequence
of revelations and insights eliminated all
previous confusion.
Above all, there
came a
growing sense of personal liberation that I never could have imagined
before experiencing it.
These
revelations about the great mystery of life
continue to unfold before me. Everyday was an ‘aha’ moment that
is perhaps building to some further ultimate ‘aha’ moment that is
yet to come. This
staggering sense of amazement inspired me to write these things down
in an attempt to facilitate my personal assimilation of all this new
knowledge into
a single coherent piece,
but this
process of writing
also seemed to stimulate the flow of new knowledge.
Was
this transition finally the long sought after enlightenment? That
possibility seemed so incredibly unbelievable after all that time has
passed, and it also seems arrogant and presumptive to make such a
call for one’s self. Suffice
it to say that I
am a long way down a path that I have never taken before so I don’t
really know where it has taken me, but the
fact of the matter has
become
that question really didn’t
seem to matter anymore.
I
am where I am in what appears to be a
truly remarkable mental
space.
Report of Findings
The
unvarnished truth presented in
this discussion
could
make
some feel
uncomfortable because it might conflict with some of their
passionately held beliefs. Specifically, those individuals with a
closed mind who feel obsessively compelled to hold onto their
personal particular set of belief illusions. These illusion fixated
individuals are
not likely going to appreciated being confronted
with some of this very raw
truth. Only those who truly dare to pursue this mythical Universal
Truth should venture down
this particulate spiritual rabbit-hole.
This
journey of
spiritual self-discovery has
become the longest-standing single endeavor that is still ongoing of
my life. It has been conducted in near total solitude known only to
me for nearly fifty years. This book and others that might follow in
this Homegrown Enlightenment series have been inspired by this
incredible
fifty year journey on this twisting path experiencing various
adventures along the way, but it is not a memoir recollection of the
journey itself remarkable though that has been.
This
Homegrown Enlightenment series is an accurate as my words can convey
description of the wonderful mental space
that this journey has inspired
in
me. The opinions expressed here are being offered as food for
thought in the
personal discovery process of others. They are not things to be
blindly accepted as beliefs. Rather, there are offered for
consideration by
those
others
who are also trying to
sort through all the same challenges to get to their
own personal understanding
of the truth about the reality of our situation.
This book and any others that
may follow in this series are collectively a
final report of this my 50 year long homegrown enlightenment
experiment. For
me, they expose
a very
special
truth about our lives and the surrounding reality that is fixed and
permanent. This
collection of knowledge has proved itself to be
the key to my as my
Universal Truth. Maybe it can help others to find their own personal
sense of liberation too.